~ Day 5 ~

Today.. i went to babe`s house.. although babe had no internet access there today .. but i still go .. coz i need to visit babe`s mummy .. i know she needs me to teach her skype and msn ..

As usual .. after 40 minutes driving ( no traffic jam ) .. i reached babe`s hse .. kakak opened door for me ... i didnt see babe`s mummy ... she was in the kitchen .. i tot she `s upstair...i went up stair to look for her .. when i walked pass babe`s room .. the room was so clean n tidy ... no one`s inside .. we used to mess up the room with blanket on the floor .. babe`s clothes and underwear everywhere... i didnt stare much ..coz i know my eye would *** again...i walked down again n greet babe`s mummy .. then ..here we go pc lesson .. lesson 1, conducted by edwin.. XD

Babe`s mummy is always so kind to me ... she asked me to eat tok tok mee which is bought back by uncle.. it`s yummy ...but i ate very slowly in front of the screen.. babe used to do this always ... lol..now it`s me... i closed my eye ...pretending to sleep .. was hoping babe to come home ...waking me up ..asking me to bring her go eating .. stupid lar win.. ur babe is now in new york lar... wake up !! useless winnie cried again today ...coz he missed her babee so much ... wat to do... he really realised that how important his babee is ... he had no where to go ... while staring at the screen ... he was wondering .. wat was babe doin ... sleeping ??? does she miss u ?? lol.. yeah she is ... she misses u always ... winnie ...

i took a nap at home in the evening ... 2day`s painting work has been done.. but ...lights are not installed yet... now .. each corner of my upstairs looked so new with new painted wall .. so nice !! well... i will capture some of its photo after light installation in the next few days.. 2day i didnt go to gym as i could feel pain in every part of my body ..i guess i dont have enuff nutrient for recovery .. that`s y my muscle is pain .. i rest at home ... i had a great perfomance today in gaming .. i was at the 1st ranking in a few matches.. cool .. im so proud of myself...bro was sitting beside watching while i was playing .. i think he `s proud of me too ... hehehe ... XD ... after monday ... i `ll spend my free time for little big planet ... my little big surprise from ma babee ... u know ... i was so touched when i received this present from babee.. she told me it`s nothing as long as she sees me happy .. im so touched... babe has been working so hard ... practicing and teaching lessons.. to earn for my christmas present .. n i used to blame her ...for not spending time with me ... sorry babee .. can u forgive the bad winnie in the past ... ?? now he knows ..he understand everything ...

We had a simple dinner at home .. dad n mum were tired after doin house keeping upstairs.. n i suggested a simple celebration since everyone didnt feel like going out .. coz everywhere are crowded with ppl for sure ..

I had a lovely conversation with babee jz now after dinner ... she told me she started to feel homesick... she got so shocked suddenly when she opened her eye from sleeping .. everything `s so strange to her... she was so scared .. i felt so heart pain when i heard babee`s alone out there .. i really wish that i can fly like superman... fly to US to give babee a tight warm hug at the moment... i know babee needs me ... staying in front of laptop everyday is all i can do for babee to comfort her ... so that she wont feel the distance ...

i bought back domino`s pizza and KFC coz daddy loves KFC .. but sis n i was thinking of pizza .. so i bought both ... XD ... we had our food in front of TV ..watching 台北跨年晚会(live).. A-mei sang 家后.. this song made me felt so warm at the moment when i recalled back that nite . babee sang it for me while i was driving .. it was raining that nite .. but i didnt feel cold at all ..coz babee was holding my arm .. singing lovely songs for me.. so sweet ...

2day ..many things reminded me of babee... which made me cried and smile .. lol .. i realised that i have fallen to babee ... very very deep ...

before bedtime .. i want babee to listen to this song... this song shows exactly all my feel to my babee since she left for US ..

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I’d
Need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I’m alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missin’ you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missin’, too
When you’re gone
The words I need to hear
To always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you…

I’ve never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missin’ you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missin’, too
When you’re gone
The words I need to hear
To always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah…
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do, I give my heart and soul
I can only breathe; I need to feel you here with me
Yeah…

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missin’ you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missin’, too
When you’re gone
The words I need to hear
To always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you…

I Love you babee ... = )

~ Day 4 ~

2day .. i woke up quite late .. it was alrd lunch time ... i switched on laptop as usual .. saw babee`s on the line ... she looked excited with her frens ...i dont know... babe`s mummy had difficulty to sign in skype... i tried to get her to babee ... but i failed coz i wasnt sure with skype... 1day was the first time i had video conversation using skype ..it was smooth ... in fact .. 2day`s condition quite well ... msn smooth too .. babee laughed much 2day ... i dont know ... but i m glad to see her laughter ... i used to bring lot of laughter to babe... since she left.. 2day was the 1st time i saw her laugh ... quite pek chek 2day as she kept explaining our conversation to ppl who wasnt related ... her mummy n i was confusing in skype ... she jz kept explaining nonsense to the si oh lang .. n laugh laugh laugh ... swttt ...really swttt... well .. that `s ur babee ... be patient .. she would be giving u much more "swttt" in the future ... lol... okay ... i`ll accept ... coz i love my babeee... this is not a big deal to me .. !! heehee...well i should be happy too seeing babee is happy over there ... okay... same ...2day we didnt have much conversation ... i dont know... im still waiting for sweet n long conversation online with beebee as how we used to have ... i know i will have it sooon coz babee need to attend orientations and settle down her things ... win... give her some time ... i knw u miss ur babee... im sure ur babee is missing u madly too ... okay .....

i jz felt so warm when i saw babe`s holding ginger ... showing him to his daddy (me)... lol.... i really miss u ginger ... miss ur smell ...miss ur sweet smile on ur face ...but swtt lor ....2day ur mummy treated u as a girl girll... swtt lor hor ur mummy ... she didnt realise u r a boy boy ... lol...haha...

im goin to babe`s hse tomorrow ... im so scared ... im not sure whether im going to cry again tomorrow ... so scared .... so scared.... i know babee wont b at home tomorrow ... i know ... ginger ... daddy`s so weak ..

in the evening, i went to gym for the 1st time since babe`s left ..2day`s work out at gym was nt good ... my perfomance was sucks ... i did two body part training 2day ... chest n my biceps .. i started to feel muscle pain jz a few sets after warming up.. the weight was all light one i carried ... ( like half of wat i used to carried) ... swt ... after that ... i went for a cardio excercise, jog for 10 minutes... i had 1.2 km within 10 minutes... is that a good result ?? nop ..sorry... u r below average... swt la ... i need to reach at least 6km 1 shot ... i jz couldnt continue after 10 minutes ... my stamina has decreased ...i really need to train properly ... i jz hope that im fit enuff to join dragon boat team ...

when i returned home ...*fainted* ... they were doin drilling work upstairs ... omggg...dust all over the place .... it was sooo dirty .... i jz could nt believe this happen to me ... i had to help doin cleaning job after the workers back .... swttt ...

it was quite late when we done our housekeeping ... i had a supper at home ..then i played games.. 2day my gaming perfomance was not bad wor .. i killed alot ... i was in the 1st ranking in a match ...yay !!!! i seldom be the top one ... i killed a lot of my opponents with my favourite weapon ..machine gun ... wiped out everything in front of my sight.... jz like how rambo did in the movie ...haha...XD ... cool rite ?? * clapping**

im tiring now ... but 2nite still need to sleep downstair... come on ...help me .... i jz hate to sleep here ... please...finish the renovation as soon as possible okay ... i need my room back ...i need a proper working place for my homework !!! i have wasted too many days .... help !!!

babee doesnt bother me much 2day ... she didnt even say a hi to me ... = ( she still cares her beebee rite ?? jz becoz of she has something on rite ?? ... yeah ... she will talk to u when she settles down everything ... okay ....

i jz want to tell beebee ... i misss her every single day ... i jz feel so jealous ..seeing couples dating walk pass me by... they r so sweet ...

i know babee is coming back to me very soon ...

alrite ..nite win...nite ginger ...nite babee.. i love u ...

~ Day 3 ~

This morning , while i was still sleeping soundly... daddy woke me up ... ~.~ coz the painting worker came to start painting work as plaster ceiling work has alrd done in my room ... i didnt wash my face also ... i rushed to downstair for my laptop to see my babee.... i knew she `s on the line .. yay !!! beebee was there when i open my laptop.. beebee was tired of her orientation .. she told me she felt sleepy during orientation ... pity ler ... dunno it wether it was becoz of me talking to her last nite n she didnt have enuff rest time ... sorry babee ... i really miss u mar.... i jz wished to have more time with u ... but honestly if u tell me that u need to rest ... i understand ... same as the previous day ... we had a video converation .. but line was sux ... end up we used typing conversation ... we didnt get to talk much too 2day ... coz babee has ppl in her room ... those ppl r annoying !!! i hate them ... !! m i selfish ??? : S

Well.. 2day my room will be having a new look.. let`s see how `s it .. XD :

Before:

The wall was white in colour.. but it looked so old since it has been white for nearly 9 yrs.. painting ... ?? to me i think it`s nice .. but if u ask me wat to change 1st ?? i`ll say electronic stuff .. XD This time renovation was my mummy idea... she jz hope to change something once a year at least so that our home wont looked old ...Photo below is showing my room before painting..

After:

How `s the new looked after a few hours painting work ??? isnt it jz nice ?? XD ... well .. i feel comfort to sleep in this environment .. i chose light blue matching with a dark blue ...but ... unfortunately ..the dark blue was too ugly...it was nt dark enuff ... but it brings more brightness in my room ...it is not as what i expect to see...it looked like under water world .. none of us can accept the dark blue .. i asked the worker to pause the work and i bought another type of blue to match with the light one ... U will see how is my room in the photo below... hehe ...

The colours matching in our room ... the darker blue u see on the left is called "twilight sky"... this name is so lovely... i knew it is going to attract my babee ..so i chose twilight sky to match with the light blue ... hehee... babee ... how `s it ?? tell me u love it too !!! hehe...

Well... i jz cant wait to see how is our room after lights installation... My uncle will come to install light in another few days ... *sigh* .. i need a room to have my private time with babee as well as my homework okay....please ... hurry up ...

In the evening ... was thinking of going to gym start my work .. A fren of mine called ... we went to sound system shop n enjoyed some nice sound there ... he wanted to change his speakers ..n he said his old sets of speakers will be mine if i say yes ....yay !!! i want it !!! his stuff is not ordinary stuff... it `s so wasted if i said no to him .. somehow ... i still need to spend at least 6 , 7 k to set up a basic HI-FI system in my room ... i knew dad is going to ~.~ n mum will say no definitely .. well .. i still believe i`ll have it soon... XD

After dinner i watched a movie at his hse .. Listening to the sound from the speakers ( will be mine soon ) ... cool ... XD ...

I felt a little bit of . . . again when we went out for supper jz now.. coz we went to eat tomyam... my babee `s favourite ... she loves this stall of tomyam very very much !!! i used to bring her go for it everytime she came over to find me ... i was wondering if babee was there beside me...sharing our favourite tomyam ... feeding each other ... aww... i missed our sweet past !!!! babeee ... tell me we are going to eat tomyam again !!! tell me we will go there for tomyam again..........!!!!!! Well... i know babeee will say YYYYYESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS to me !!! i believe in u babeee !!! coz i trusted u as how u trusted me ...

Tomorrow onwards... i guess i really need to focus on my study ... coz in the coming few weeks ... there are lots of assessment and tests that i need to submit ... i have to work hard !!! i have to work hard !!!! for our future !!! our HOME ...!!!!our dreams !!!! + U !!! + U !!!! + U !!!!

As usual... before bedtime. .. i jz want to say again ... I love u babee... no matter where u are ... i know u can feel beebee is saying it to u ...

~ Day 2 ~

at bout 6.. i got her online again .. for the 1st time ..we had webcam ...the line was sux ... but i could see my babee... oh my god ... i missed her so muchhhhhh ... i could nt explain that kind of feeling ... jz miss her !!!!! she `s fine there ... nt freezing ... the surrounding seems nice .. with frenly african frens there .. then i felt relief ... i think she had something need to settle down still ... she didnt talk much to me .. but i understand ... she asked me to sleep since i looked tired ...n sicked ... coughing n flu ... pity boy ....

early in the morning ... finally ... i had a clearer video conversation with my babe ... she showed me the surroundings ... wow ... it jz cool .. the big LCD tv in front their bed impressed me !! babe look good over there ... n i saw ginger !!! i was so happy that ginger was staying in front of the screen with babee ... babee was holding ginger while she was talking to me ... i jz ... wanted to smilee at the moment ...

i felt much better since this morning ... coz i have babee talking to me this morning ... she`s fine there ...she`s fine there !!! i could see her wearing the cute pyjamas which she used to wear at home with me beside... i misss her lips ... miss her smelll ...miss everything of babeee .... somehow ... i still dont have the gut to go to babe house ... coz i know im gonna cry again for sure ... coz i know i m not gonna see babee at home ...

im useless......

~ Day 1 ~

i woke up quite early 2day ...it was 9 sumthing .. i found babe`s reply and msn msg... swttt !!! my bad ...i fell asleep n missed out babe`s calling ... she nudged me for so many times ...how didnt i awake n reply her ?? why ???? lazy pig edwin !!!! she told me she had reached abu dabi airport..was waiting for the next flight...pity my babe.... waited there alone ... stranger all around her ... im so worried bout her !!!! so worried bout my babee!!!

i washed my face n sticked to my laptop at the minutes onwards ... until evening ... still not receiving babe`s reply ... i was so worried !!! nothing i could do ... but jz waiting ... arghhhhh... that feeling `s killing me !!!! i rejected all call to hang out or even dinner ... i didnt wan to go anywhere ... i jz wanted to stay in front of laptop until i have babe online n tells me she has reach New yrk city safely ... while waiting ... i took out my x`mas present n took some photos.. i wanted to share my happiness with a fren of mine ..he kept asking me to show him my sackboy ...lol okay ...

finally ... at 1255am... i got babe`s call from new york city hotel !!!!! phew !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she gave me a number asked me to call back ... she had some difficulties in connecting internet.. so i called her .. we had jz a short conversation as babe was too tired ... she had to bath .. i waited her to online so that i could talk to her ... waited n waited .... "t`ng .. " here she online ...yay!!!!

who knows ...that `s wat i got :

"muaxxxx!!!

i'm going out with them

byeeee

talkl to u tomolo"

then she went offline ... swt !!! haih ... i should have known my babe well ... she jz cant wait to explore the new place .. n shopping ... whatever ..since she has landed safely ... okay la ... i think i should go n rest le lar.. i slept beside my laptop with cellphone in my hand in case babe called me again .. i m not gonna miss again !!!

Babe has gone to US ....

After a supper with my friend and his wife.. I headed home directly coz i was too tired as i`ve been rushing to make sure my babee reached airport safely in the whole day...swt.. everybody had gone out for supper ...i was alone again... haih... i didnt bath... i switched on my laptop to check mail since i had been away from home for few days alrd .. i found babe`s mail for me !!!

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babe!!!!‏
From:
Siew Bin Lee (jamie_lsb@hotmail.com)
Sent:
Friday, 26 Dec, 2008 8: 05 PM
To:
slam_d@hotmail.com


dear babee...i m in klia now and waiting for my flight!! i miss u so madly.. wait for me ya darling... muaxxx love u always...and dont cry.. you're suppose to comfort me okay?? muaxxx babe yang yang

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Again... tears started to flood my eyes again ... keep coming out from my eye none stop..i didnt know why...i jz cried out ... lost control... i cried n cried ... babe`s fren were asking me bout babe... it made me cried even more ... many of my frens were concerning bout me .. they knew im gonna sad since babe has gone to US ... but ..i jz couldnt speak a word ... jz cried while replying babe`s mail... i fell asleep...

pity boy ... the whole face was wet like a wu zou mao le ... fell asleep jz like that in front of my laptop...

sleep for not a while ... awake again ... i had a hot shower and return to my laptop... didnt see any reply from my babe... (she `s still in the plane) again... tears drop again when i looked back our sweet moment...

~~ Saddest moment in my life ~~

today ... i will never forget today ... the saddest moment in my life ..

i didnt sleep last nite ... although my eye was bout to close ... i dont want miss a single minute with babee ...

early in the morning ... i went to wake my beebee ... "beebee... it`s 8am... wake up..." my sleepy piggy still sleeping soundly ... i let her continue sleeping since she is going to take a long flight..it`s very tiring i know .. since still early ... i go to bed take a short nap coz i know i have to rest since i have to help beebee carrying luggages n bags ... my brain didnt really think much bout wat we r goin to face 2day at this moment ... i jz close my eye n sleep.. suddenly ... i had my babe hug me very tight n cried sadly ... i was shocked ... lol .. babe was scared by wat her frens told her ... haiyo... that are completely different things okay ... the thing they said was illegal ... my babe's is legal ... i n her mummy comforted her n finally she got calm down n continue packing her thing again ...

i went down to see her ... this little lazy beebee .. still busying chatting msn ...haih... i helped her to keep some clothes... after that ... i went up to again ... not for a shower ... it`s my lazy worm attcked ...haha ... went to bed for few more minutes rest .. haha ... beebee came up ... gave me a kiss in the lips n went to bathroom ... this time the lazy piggy (me) still didnt feel like getting up ... XD

after bathing ... i wear nice nice .. drove her out to a cc to print some documents .. along the way ... beebee fed me eat dim sum while i was driving... she told me a lot of our future ... that calms me down alot ... i smile to her n promise her "G_C_i" .. hehe..after printing documents ... went to gurney plaza to change US dolar .... then we headed home to get ready to go to air port.

at the air port, everything were strange to me ... coz i have never taken a flight before ...where to check in ...where to this n that ... sorry ... i dont know ... haha ... coz i still have beebee n her relatives guiding us... so ... i jz walk around n explore the airport... all her frens and relatives had arrived ... taking pictures ...chit chatting ...i see no tears at all in everyone's face ... woo ..cool ... who knows... when we were bout to check in... some ppl's eye changed ... smile were fading away ... n tears dropped ... babe gave them a hug n then we walked in without looking back anymore ... babe still managed to control her self at that time ... we went to rest room before getting in the plane...

along the way ... i was still excited ... making joke to beebee since i know im going to cry for sure if i kept quiet .. we looked out to the window... the sky and clouds are so beautiful ...really wish this time is our honey moon travel.. really ... beebee lying on my arms .. gave my arm a bite as usual .. but this time i felt more pain... i know beebee is goin to miss my arm in the future ... she bites hard this time ...

after 50 minutes flight... we reach k.l-LCCT ... it was 4 in the afternoon .. my check in flight was 1935.. so i tot we still have some time to eat n shop for a new bag to replace beebee`s broken rabbit... unfortunately... we waited our luggages n bags to check out for nearly an hour ... it was 5 alrd ... we rushed out to take shuttle to get KLIA ... i carried all the heavy luggage n bags into the bus ... n then bus moved... i let beebee sit n i stood along the way to KLIA...

by the time we reached KLIA ... it was alrd 1735... we rushed down with our luggages on a tolley.. looking for luggages shop ... we were running out of time ... i tot i can still buy a meal for beebee for the last time ... we found a mini mart selling luggages ... i went in n chose a big one for bebe ... hope that everything in the broken rabbit could be fitted in the new one ... i went to the fridge n took out 2 bottles of drink before i make my payment at the counter ... wanted greentea...bebee's favourite .. but i could nt find there ... so ... apple juice ... i helped beebee took out everything n squeezed into the new bag .. phew .. luckily ... everything's in .. haha.. XD ...but ... it was alrd 1805.. i had to go for shutte bus to return to LCCT le ... we went to lift to go down from level 3 to level 2 ... this time i let beebee pushed the trolley coz i wanted to make sure beebee is able to push when she is alone in US ..

"ting..." lift door opened ... when i was bout to walk out ... beebee jz stood behind ...her eye are red alrd .. omg ... i tot she would send me to the bus then only she go check in..a quick hug and the last kiss in the lips ... i walked out ... that`s the place we separated, 1812 .....

by the time i turned around ...the lift went up alrd ... didnt get to wave my hand with beebee ... sigh**

i started running coz i know i might b late for my return flight... i ran to the station ... sht... the bus has nt arrived ... i ran again to get to another building for taxi ... who knows... the 10 minutes travel costed RM 38 !! shit .. i ran back to the bus station again .. shit ... the next bus wasnt coming yet ... omg ... i tot im goin to miss the flight... i went in every bus there n asked ... luckily ... the third bus i asked was going back to LCCT ... i paid n walked to the end for seat... when i was about to take out my cellphone to call my babeee.... my phone rings ... it was my babee !!!! oh my god ... i jz could nt control my self when i heard her voice calling me ... we cried like hell ... awww ... my heart`s so pain ... i felt like jumping out of the bus to go back for my babee at this moment... i could nt believe wat i had now ... for thenext 2 years ... i have got to go through everything without beebee ... i `ll be alone in the next 2 years .... babee kept crying ... n i was too ... awww.... i tried hard not to cry so that i could talk to comfort my babee ... but the tears kept coming out ... ...at the moment...i really felt the pain.... if im given another chance ... i dont think i `ll walk out of the lift ... i wont !!!!

finally i reached LCCT and checked-in in time ...I went to toilet to wash my face ... i dont have mood to walk around ... i look for a seat and called my babe... i want to keep our conversation on until i got into the flight ... we both sounds better now ... but ... tears still dropping on my face... haih ... pity the sweet couple ...

to me .. i jz felt likethe begining of our dream has jz begun at the moment ... within the 2 yrs ... i need to work hard for our future ... stay strong to defend our relationship... coz i have
made mypromise to my babe ... im not going to disappoint her !!!!

stupid flight delayed ..by the time i reached penang ... my babe had alrd got into her plane... didnt get talk to beebee before she takes off.. i didnt want to think much ... i walked out the airport n got in my bro`s car ... went home ....